Hello Again World,
Sorry about that waterfall of negativity. Obviously it is not going to get me anywhere. I cannot allow myself to feel hopeless! And I cannot say all the doubts that are in my mind because once they are said aloud, they only seem more and more true. I have to keep repeating positive thoughts aloud in order to make them turn into reality.
Yes, it's true. I am horrified by a feeling that everything could turn out totally wrong. But there is also so much good that I can make out of this break. I can pamper myself more than I ever allowed myself to be pampered while I was slaving away at the drafting desk/computer. I also have been working on so many self-improvement things that I really have needed to work on. I am gradually becoming a more sociable, kinder, more loving, and more confident person. I have to fight these onslaughts of depression, though. They will do me no good!
Yes, I am looking for a career in architecture, but here are some of the things that I want to achieve in the meantime:
1. Write a short story.
2. "Publish" an illustrated children's story.
3. Paint a series of paintings about my local downtown.
4. Learn more about music.
5. Sell paintings.
6. Volunteer with the local Habitat and with other humanitarian causes.
7. Teach my lil sister some good study habits, help her escape the drone of TV and computer.
8. Get fit again.
Ok you are probably getting bored of me repeating over and over what I want to do! Now's the time to do it! From now on, no more whiny posts. I thought it would rid me of whininess but it only makes me whinier. From now on, I will only publish progress. Probably mostly on my short story, but we'll see how it goes down.
For all you budding architects, here are two articles you should read:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/artanddesign/2011/mar/06/michael-gove-architecture-in-schools
http://famousarchitect.blogspot.com/2007/11/26-fake-it-til-you-make-it.html
Not necessarily cheerful, but interesting nonetheless.
