Thanks be to the Lord!!
Last month was full of blessings! I had three interviews. Now I have a job offer that I am seriously considering, but which is also extremely difficult to take because it would take me away from design in architecture. This company has been so kind to me, flattering and accommodating. It is like they love me or something. It is quite a nice compliment to be offered a position and then to be offered help to help you reach your dreams if you decide you don't want to stay in the company... OMG They are TOO kind, but I have made an investment in my future by applying to graduate school. It is an uncertain and cloudy thing. Dark and vague and blurry and foggy, but it is an investment I have already made in my future as a designer and WHAT if I am accepted into the Ivy league or even my Alma Mater what then? But how am I going to pay for school and how am I going to afford this mess?
They want a commitment from me -- a commitment of 2 years -- because of the investment they will be making by training me...and what can I do? I cannot lie or pretend, and I cannot commit a year to them when Yale may say yes to me tomorrow and there is no postponing allowed. $180,000 that is the total cost of 3 years at Yale. I will not make enough extra money to pay that off by doing architecture!! So I would need scholarships, and why would anyone give me one??
Why would a great graduate school accept me when not even mediocre architecture firms will? My parents say because the economy is bad, because you will be paying them, because...
Architecture is oh so Abusive, is it not?! What would be so bad about a little security, free time, me time that this job would offer?!
God guide my steps!!
